Is it because we love our men so much that it's easy for them to infuriate us? I really try to have patience with my husband but sometimes I feel like he just wants to see how far he can push me before I snap.
This deployment has been hell on both of us. We've had enough to be worried and upset about for a lifetime and, still, we're facing the possibility of doing ANOTHER deployment before they pull out the troops in 2014. I don't know how people have multiples of these under their belts. One and I feel like snapping. I'm just one of those wives who really likes their husbands. It gives me no joy having him gone. Call me crazy but I kinda like my husband, that's why I married him.
He is just a man though. I shouldn't expect as much as I do from him with him being deployed but I don't want to watch the best pieces of him that I love fall away. He is so kind and even tempered at home, rarely quick to shout. Over there, he is short in conversation (some because of what he is doing and some because....I don't know why) with a short temper to match.
I want so much for him to be home, he has peace when he is here. He's not stressed day in and day out. People tell me he won't be the same when he gets home, that he'll have a hard time finding his place back within our family. I would give him all the time in the world but I don't want him to feel as though there is not a place here for him.
No matter how frustrated I get over things, my love for him never falters. I wish I was counting down hours until his homecoming, unfortunately it is still months. Before too long we will be counting hours and until then I'll try to keep up my strength for him, for Tyler and for myself.
No matter our fights or disagreements I am still his wife and he is still the love of my life.... ♥
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That's real love...and you are blessed my dear...just keep holding on and love will find a way.
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