Alone, sick and bored....

When Neil was home, any time I was sick he would always take care of things around the house on the weekend and would let me rest. He would even bring me breakfast in bed.

Last night, I went to bed knowing that I had a sore throat coming on. It had been going on all day and I finally gave into it and took some NyQuil and went to bed. This morning I woke up and there was no doubt that the sore throat was there. It took me forever to get moving and Tyler was gracious enough to let me lay in bed while he entertained himself in his room. I finally rolled out of bed and got us both dressed so we could run out and grab some food and retreat right back to the house. And here we've been all day. Tyler has been watching movies on his DVD player and I've been planted on the couch watching some DVD's I got out at the library.

One thing I learned today about men is that they are just born ignoring women. It's not a learned thing or them just being fed up with women. Tyler was watching TV and I got up to go put my car in the garage and he looked at me and I said to him 'I'm going to go put the car in the garage, I'll be right back.' and he turned back to his TV without saying anything so I said 'Tyler, did you hear me?' he turned to me and said 'Yes.' so I said 'What did I say?' he said 'Ummm you're going potty?'. So I said 'Noooo! I'm going to put my car in the garage.' To which I then mumbled under my breath that he was definitely a man! I already feel bad for his future wife.....or husband!

I've spent all day wrapped up in my blanket and my hoodie but I would've given anything to have been wrapped up in Neil's arms all day long. I can only hope for an improvement tomorrow. Being inside all day drove me insane and I didn't want to spend the weekend like this. Tyler works hard at school all week and my working out takes up the time that he is at school and now we couldn't even enjoy our weekend together. I hope we will be able to do something tomorrow and that this cold will just be a horrible memory.

I was looking at the countdowns that I have on my phone and realized that we're already into the double digits to this shitty deployment ending! I'm so over it all and feel so alone and exposed without him here. There are days when I feel like I don't have a friend in the world and I call my Mother way too late to chat her ear off or just to feel like I'm close to someone. I'm glad that Neil has reenlisted because he loves this life and I love him happy (although he DID sign his paperwork nearly a month ago and has YET to have his ceremony) but it will be great to be back on the East Coast and try a new duty station on for size! We've both learned a lot here and grown as people but it's time to move on! One of the things that we agreed upon about getting into this Army life as a family is that we wanted to travel and see new things/experience new places and I'm ready to have him home and see somewhere new! There is still lots of places around here that we want to see before we PCS and we are hoping to leave early before we have to be at our next duty station so we can see California before we go!

I love you, Neil, come home to us soon! ♥