This is where the healing begins....

I was touched by this song today. It actually gets to me every time I hear it and Tenth Avenue North is definitely becoming one of my favorite Christian bands but I think this song may help a lot of people. We all face trials in our every day lives but breaking down those walls and confessing your sins is really where the healing begins.

It doesn't matter how much you have or don't have. If friends judge you on that then they are not friends at all. Neil and I have gone through a lot in the last few years and we really learned who our friends were and weren't. The people who couldn't get their heads around us going through financial hardship and both Neil and I losing our jobs almost simultaneously, having to move back in with my parents and selling our beloved brand new Dodge Charger were the people that we could do without and we trimmed that fat in our lives.

I never thought that I would be in a position of having to justify myself to people. Neil used to tell me all the time that I didn't need to answer to anyone but myself. I felt ashamed that we were going through rough times with a baby on the way. It didn't help when friends would look down their noses at me. I thanked God every day though that my parents were able to take us in. Had it not been for them...I shudder to think where we would've ended up.

As for the Army, I am not upset one bit about Neil wanting to join and this is a decision that we entered into together. A lot of discussion went into it. As a matter of fact, 5 years of discussing went into it. We're just thankful that Neil has the opportunity to do something that he truly loves. He was upset when he had to leave the Territorial Army back in England for us to move back to the States. I will always be proud of and faithful to him.

It doesn't matter what I have or don't have. I have the love of my husband, son, parents, sister, in-laws, my savior - Jesus Christ and the Great Father Almighty. Those are the only people I will answer to.

This is where the healing begins....

Healing Begins - Tenth Avenue North