The beginning....

There are very few moments that stick out in my mind but the day I met my future husband is a day I will never forget. 

We met on the internet, as most people know, the story behind 'how' might be something not all know the intimate details of. 

Neil had recently moved back to his parents house after a very nasty break up that had left him pretty much stranded in the middle of nowhere with no one who cared about him. I had just broke up with someone that I was engaged to but realized I couldn't see more from our future then a few months at a time but never years. I had a nagging ex-boyfriend in the background who would constantly vie for my attention but ultimately I wasn't even the person that he wanted to be with. 

We were both at a crossroads in our lives and we found one another in a chat room where we realized we were both pretty down. We took the conversation over to MSN and we started to comfort each other. He became someone I would rely on and look for to tell my day to or to rant about the latest goings on. He was amazing and would listen intently and offer his advice. 

He wanted to see me as something more, something permanent. I couldn't even fathom being in a relationship right then let alone a long distance relationship. We would chat every day...on the phone, on the internet, via webcam. Whatever means we could communicate, we would do it. Not a day would go by though where he wouldn't ask me if I would be his girlfriend. My heart ached to say yes but my brain told me to say no. 

Years had gone by before I knew it and he was preparing to be the best man at his brother's wedding. He reflected on his feelings for me a lot in the lead up to it and I couldn't help but feel the urge to want to be at his side. Not only in this time that was making him nervous but as his wife for a life time. I finally agreed to be his girlfriend and we started the plans to meet up in person finally. 

Neil was a very dedicated soldier and was in training to become a para-trooper for the Territorial Army. He had to go for a guns course that took him away from home and away from the PC. It was the hardest time for us. He would call me crying that he missed me and he told me over the phone that he needed me to be his wife, forever. He wanted to be with me forever. He was choosing me. Someone actually wanted me above everyone else. 

Our plans quickly turned from me taking a trip up there to meet him for the first time to me meeting him for the first time and becoming Mrs Neil Humphreys all in one trip. 

We had spent so many years being everything to each other already and it felt like the right time to commit our lives to each other permanently. 

Everyone thinks of our courtship as a 'whirlwind romance' but it's quite the opposite. Sure we spent only six months engaged to each other and we had not met face to face. But I knew him and he knew me better than some people I know who have been married for 20+yrs. When all you have are your words to express and each moment of your day is spent, not in silence, but in conveying in words your every feeling you begin to learn the inner workings of each other. And we were doing that for over two years before we married!

I was eagerly awaiting June, how cliche to be a June bride but it wasn't so much the month that mattered as WHO I was marrying that mattered. It could have been the middle of December in a frozen tundra and I would've been there in a sun dress if that was all I had. Nothing was going to stop me from spending my life with the man who was making my life worth living!